It's easy for me to find reasons not to write. A couple of them are understandable but mostly they are stupid. And lies. Because the biggest reason not to write is fear. I am afraid that I am not very good. Definitely not as good as Fitzgerald, or Hemingway or Jonathan Safran Foer. Not as good as I want to be. I've tried several times to deny this part of me. To pretend that I don't need to write. I stop for awhile but I always come back to it. I get that itch that won't go away until I start again. So here I am starting again. Feeling a little bit like it's a fruitless exercise. A habit that'll never lead anywhere. But either way I have to write. It's who I am.